Thursday, 11 September 2014

review of last week

okay well this is my midnight post.
called as midnight post coz i post at the midnight?.. 
HAHAHAA facing the laptop alone. well i scare being alone at night...
i had wanted to make this post since last week but just keep postponing 

went back to pj last week. actually want to take my transcript.
and finally,i still cant get mine.
THEY AREN'T EFFECTIVE AT ALL
do they have so many students? nope.
do they have too many paperworks to do? nope.
it has been two months. damn you biz school of mahsa.
not cursing just angry. the period they took to mark my paper is too long. 
is that spm result? *the b-4-8 keep laughing at me  lollllllllllll*

skip the ranting
last thursday night,planned to go to the bulgogi korean bbq restaurant at kota damansara with ss
mr neil brought us to there before 
MA-XI-DA
so i want to go again since i grabbed the chance
unluckily,im not really used to waze
crazy waze i shouldnt too believe in you
so it leaded me to other place,again. and the conclusion was,we lost again.
ended up with having dinner at food foundry at section 17.
and dessert time-durian pie.
delicious - cant deny it
but quite costly.
you thought we will sleep so early since we had a personal driver?
HIAKHIAKHIAK *evil laughing*
we went for midnight movie,"but always"
太唯美 抗拒不了
gaoyuanyuan is too gorgeous nicholas tse is too mannnnnn oh my god
the day we watched that movie is the first day it released in malaysia actually
only seven audiences including us
sobbing inside the cinema. love the soundtrack
jescy and i could keep repeating the same song all the time
空白格 我听的是歌词 是心情 



last friday,went out with them (jescy,shooksiang and raymond)
in the morning they were so ganjiong with their result

SO after they got their result and settled all the prob
too happy too free too excited then raymond managed to go out.
one utama.
watched the movie, "break up 100"
i could not understand the storyline actually
jescy neither. 
but the other two of them cried at the cinema
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i must mention this again and again
they wiped their tears and i saw
so jescy and i concluded something lastly.
可能我们都不会爱了所以故事带来的讯息我们吸收不了
我貌似真的不会爱了...



after that mr driver mr raymond sent jescy to ciahue there at bangsar.
then we went for dinner at kimchiharu at jaya one.
i was just like a lightbulb kept blinking between ss and raymond hahaha.
*jinja paiseh ne* hahaha
kimchiharu cant compared with bulgogi *i still miss ittttttttt
i think i should fly to southkorea to try their true traditional korean food.
one day.
a must in my life.


last saturday,papa fetched me at mahsa and we went to dai-gu-jie there to fetch her 
we went to genting for frances yip.
i knew nothing about her. papa told me that she is the one sang 上海滩
ohh....... 
i rmb i used to sang this song with my classmate during form 2/3

her voice is nice. and her jokes.lol funny la wey
i think i was the only 90-s audience sitting down there. 
embarrassing :/

genting is too cold. i couldnt sleep well. 
talked a lot with my aunt. about her family. god bless.




hey thn,
we dont talk much already like the time we just knew each other.
but we still fight.okay i m the one that start the fight first.
i always end it up with harsh words. 
but on the second day you still send me message. 
i know,im not the one that could melt your heart.
i am also clear that i can live without you.
very well,quite well. you are a good companion.
quite warm sometimes.

我们只是养成了这些小习惯 其实或许没有很喜欢 让感情慢慢淡化 我在等着
以前你话中有话我会心跳加速 现在我不想多想了

Monday, 1 September 2014

01092014

真的不知道自己怎么了 又对你放狠话了
没退路了也不会像从前那样假装什么也没发生过
我是在逃避吗 我们从来没有适合过 也不曾了解过


对于自己没信心一直握着的东西 宁愿自己先放开
其实蛮喜欢你的 chenhaonan
可是
不行 对吧


我知道
只是不想要到最后 得到的又是一句 对不起



文笔不好 不擅长表达
我真的不会爱 甚至如何给予 也不会了 自己要的是什么 我开始模糊不清了





你有时候太温暖 那余温到现在还散不去
最伤心的也还是 你从来没承认过 是我自己想太多
从一开始 就告诉自己不能去期待 殊不知期待已慢慢累积了

什么都被自己搞砸了 本来有关心自己的你
却说了一些难听的话 你知道我在想什么却假装不知
你走了也好 我一个人就好


自己一个人掉眼泪好过告诉别人 让别人和你一起难过 这样真的不好